It’s a struggle but not impossible

Today started out great until I went to check my school status- I was no longer registered for one out of my two summer courses and I was put on restrictions. For those who follow me on Twitter, you’ll see that I mentioned that I didn’t do like I would have liked in one of my courses, and well, here’s the consequence for it. Instead of taking a new class this summer, I will be repeating that class- thankfully everything is fresh in my mind and I have tons of notes that I’ll be reviewing starting tomorrow before class starts next week.

I cried, I’m a cryer lol. Not doing well in school is something I’m not really used to. For the longest time I was always an honors student and/or a top student in school, I was always advanced but I took a huge dip.

My life is different now. My life isn’t just about me now. My first priority isn’t school, it’s my family and I’m not going to change that BUT I am going to school to offer my family a good life, one they deserve. So, with that said, I am going to work 100x harder.

It was difficult for me because in class I would think about Gio, at home I’d push all studies aside and do a ton of other things, even during Gio’s naps I didn’t study. I didn’t really pick up a rhythm until it was unfortunately too late. Now I know, and lesson learned.

Erwin always offered me this and that, but I would always say no that I wanted to do this and that instead (such as give Gio dinner and a bath, take him to the park so I can study, etc.). Erwin is amazing. He helps me so much, and I need to take advantage of the help that I have.

It’s not impossible for me to succeed, for a spare moment today I was just so overwhelmed because it just felt like I failed not only myself but my family as well, and that feeling sucks. It felt like so because I’m trying to finish all my courses in a specific time period so I can officially apply to the Diagnostic Medical Sonography (DMS) program on a particular date, and for a moment it looked like I couldn’t and that I’d have to wait longer- but it looks like with extra work and study time I might be able to still do so.

BUT, even if I can’t I already came up with a plan. I still plan to finish all my study plans next spring semester, and if it’s too late to apply to the DMS program THATS OK. I can work during my break time, help my household, focus on Gio, and then apply and kick some serious ass in the program because I know that I can do it. I know that I will be great. There’s no doubt about it in my mind.

I’m really tough on myself, I’ve always been, but I’m working hard on teaching myself that things happen. Everyday is a new learning experience for me, for anyone. I finally have my balance. I finally have a peace of mind. I have the best family and every reason to be happy, so now that I’m well focused I’m only going to push forward, work harder, and show myself that it’s not impossible to be greater and better.

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New Adventures with Gio :)

As he gets bigger, Gio loves new things, doing new things, and gets better at stuff he’s been practicing. 

Something Gio really loves now are slides. He has a pretty strong core and good balance, so he can actually go down on his own. I felt like it was early for him to be able to go down on his own, but maybe I was wrong? He holds himself so well. Although, he also likes tricking me into thinking he’s going down the slide and then crawls away into a tunnel or up some stairs. 


His favorite thing at the park are the swings. He loves being on the swings. He recognizes them now. So each time I point at it he smiles HUGE and asks to be put in- in his own way of course.


He tries to swing himself, at least I think, and he just laughs the whole time. It’s precious, and I love watching him be so happy with something so incredibly simple. He’s actually been at a point of almost falling asleep TWICE! He was so relaxed and tired, lol. 

Another thing that Gio enjoys is Blaze, that show on Nickolodeon. I found it strange how much he’s grown to like it. Blaze is a monster truck, so the show is about him and helping his friends- it teaches kids engineering, math, science, etc. I’ve seen bits of episodes where they teach friction and angles and Gio is just so amused “talking” to Blaze. He has gotten into cars lately so I want to assume that’s why he loves the show?He’s learned to push them around and gets so fascinated by the fact that he can. 


Gio has known how to wave for a while, but gets so shy about it. He’ll only wave to me or Erwin. So, we’re practicing and trying to show him that he should always wave hi and bye.

He also loves it’s when you say wake up sleepy head ’cause he’ll pat his head and afterwards we’ll say yay Gio! And he’ll clap 🙂 

Ever since he’s learned to go up the stairs, which he’s really fast at and tries to run away from us now, he likes attempting to climb into or onto things. Sometimes he can, sometimes his goal isn’t so realistic lol 

One of Gio’s favorite time of the day is bath time. He loves his baths, which is a huge plus for us! Gio reaches now the knobs that control the water and has known to turn his water on for a while now, too. His new thing is what seems to be him testing out the water temperature in his tub and coming down. It’s pretty funny to watch, actually. 

Hope you guys enjoyed reading these new little Gio adventures! Hopefully soon enough I can update to post videos for you guys, and maybe start a YouTube channel? Maybe! In the mean time, I usually post most videos on my Twitter! 🙂 xoxo- Aura