It’s a struggle but not impossible

Today started out great until I went to check my school status- I was no longer registered for one out of my two summer courses and I was put on restrictions. For those who follow me on Twitter, you’ll see that I mentioned that I didn’t do like I would have liked in one of my courses, and well, here’s the consequence for it. Instead of taking a new class this summer, I will be repeating that class- thankfully everything is fresh in my mind and I have tons of notes that I’ll be reviewing starting tomorrow before class starts next week.

I cried, I’m a cryer lol. Not doing well in school is something I’m not really used to. For the longest time I was always an honors student and/or a top student in school, I was always advanced but I took a huge dip.

My life is different now. My life isn’t just about me now. My first priority isn’t school, it’s my family and I’m not going to change that BUT I am going to school to offer my family a good life, one they deserve. So, with that said, I am going to work 100x harder.

It was difficult for me because in class I would think about Gio, at home I’d push all studies aside and do a ton of other things, even during Gio’s naps I didn’t study. I didn’t really pick up a rhythm until it was unfortunately too late. Now I know, and lesson learned.

Erwin always offered me this and that, but I would always say no that I wanted to do this and that instead (such as give Gio dinner and a bath, take him to the park so I can study, etc.). Erwin is amazing. He helps me so much, and I need to take advantage of the help that I have.

It’s not impossible for me to succeed, for a spare moment today I was just so overwhelmed because it just felt like I failed not only myself but my family as well, and that feeling sucks. It felt like so because I’m trying to finish all my courses in a specific time period so I can officially apply to the Diagnostic Medical Sonography (DMS) program on a particular date, and for a moment it looked like I couldn’t and that I’d have to wait longer- but it looks like with extra work and study time I might be able to still do so.

BUT, even if I can’t I already came up with a plan. I still plan to finish all my study plans next spring semester, and if it’s too late to apply to the DMS program THATS OK. I can work during my break time, help my household, focus on Gio, and then apply and kick some serious ass in the program because I know that I can do it. I know that I will be great. There’s no doubt about it in my mind.

I’m really tough on myself, I’ve always been, but I’m working hard on teaching myself that things happen. Everyday is a new learning experience for me, for anyone. I finally have my balance. I finally have a peace of mind. I have the best family and every reason to be happy, so now that I’m well focused I’m only going to push forward, work harder, and show myself that it’s not impossible to be greater and better.

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Big boy haircut! 

In case you guys haven’t checked out my social medias, which you should ;), Gio finally got his first real haircut. I mean real as in professional, not by me.

I’m not sure if I’ve shared it on here yet, but I am a licensed Cosmetologist so I guess you could consider me a professional, but I was never so successful cutting Gio’s hair, haha. 

I LOVE the end result of his haircut. My baby looks so handsome, I can’t even 🤦🏻‍♀️ I thought the process of getting the haircut done was going to be difficult but he did so well. He definitely surprised me because he never really liked it when I cut his hair,so of course there were some mistakes in his hair pretty often. So taking him to get a professionally done cut had me nervous since machines would be involved too, not only scissors, but he was good. He was very curious about what was on his head and would want to look so I kept his face in my hand until he realized he had to stay still.

Of course I had my tricks to help him stay still. On my phone I have the Nick Jr. app so that helped distract him throughout the cut. I kept switching up the episodes he was watching to keep him distracted. The lady cutting his hair, Lucy, was also so good and so patient- she even had a drawer with little toys to help distract kids as small, probably even smaller, than Gio.

I’m so proud of how good he did! Hopefully I’ll be taking good pictures soon for you guys 🙂

D.C. Fun! 

Hi everyone! I hope everyone has an amazing Easter weekend, and got to enjoy the nice weather! We definitely enjoyed ours.

Erwin and I had been wanting to go to D.C. for a while, and we finally did! The main reason why we wanted to was because of the cherry blossoms, but we were too late for them this year :/ but it was still beautiful and the weather was so, so nice- so it was a fun time anyway.


We had a chance to take pictures, finally! We’ve been so busy with Erwin working, me going to school, getting stuff packed to move and finding a new place to go- it’s just been crazy! So it was really refreshing to be able to enjoy the day. It brought back some nice memories from last year when I was still pregnant with Gio.


As some of you may know already, Erwin loves taking pictures so we tried to find spots to take pictures, and he got some really nice shots!


Gio did really well the whole trip despite it being warm and sunny. I packed him plenty of snacks and a purée, cold water, and milk (we carry a thermostat to keep drinks either warm or cool- comes so in handy! I got it at WalMart). I also took and put on him, his Aveeno sunscreen. Like I’ve mentioned, Gio has mild eczema so we’re picky on what we use for him, but either way, I highly recommend Aveeno for ANYONE. It’s such a great brand. That day Gio also wore a very light blue shirt, also light in material, and denim shorts to keep him comfy and refreshed. 

We walked around D.C. for two hours maybe? We really didn’t feel the time since we were just truly enjoying each other’s company and being out. We went to the Washington Monument, Tidal Basin, World War ll memorial, and the Floral Library.



After D.C. we head home and stayed there for the rest of the day. We had Jeremy with us and we were able to give him his Easter basket. We collected a bunch a small things that we figured he would like and enjoy. It consisted of: chalk/bean bags, a gumball machine, emoji bubbles, candy, and a few of those little surprise toy bags. He was very happy with it which was great! 

For the rest of the day we all played and simply hung out together! It was a really nice day 🙂

Bye guys! Xoxo

Baby Gio!

Gio is HUGE! I’m really sorry for not being on here and giving monthly updates on my little guy. Honestly, for a while I wasn’t sure anymore if I wanted to blog, if I didn’t want to, but I love it so here we are!

Last time we went to the doctor’s office, Gio weighed approximately 20lbs and measured 30in. He’s definitely taller now! Possibly heavier too? Maybe. This kid is getting so big and outgrowing everything!

Little fun facts about Gio:

-He stands! Supporting onto something/ someone. I feel like he can stand on his own, but when he realizes that you’re not holding him, he’ll let himself fall.

-He walks with support! With one of us, with a walker or one of those walkers he has to push himself

-He has 4 teeth! Let me tell ya, when those top two were coming out… He was something else, lol

-He LOVES his bath. He loves water in general

-He’s not much of a crier. He does get fussy, even cranky, but he doesn’t really cry

-He will look for something when you hide it

-He waves hi and bye, and kind of says hola

-He babbles A LOT

-He claps! Finally! One of his favorite things is clapping. Especially with his dad- his dad will clap and he becomes so amazed, then he puts his head in-between his hands and has his dad clap on his head, its the funniest thing. Now that he learned to clap he’s so amazed with himself, he even stares at his hands after lol

-He can feed  himself with his hands, sometimes he’ll get the hang of the spoon but only for a handful of tries

-He is now only formula fed (had to stop around 8 months). He can use the bottle and sippy cup perfectly on his owns

-He eats purees and pieces of food. He doesn’t really care what puree he eats. He’s always accepted them all. Actual pieces of food isn’t the same story, though. Sometimes he’ll love one food one day, but not the next.

-He likes a few shows like Bubble Guppies, Little Einsteins, Paw Patrol, Team Umizoomi, Super Why, etc., but doesn’t watch as much of it. I try my best to keep him active, but the shows do help me honestly

-He goes to a gym class and LOVES it

Gio’s Arrival 


My baby, GioVanni DeAngelo, was born on April 4th at 3:37 pm. He weighed 6lbs 10oz and measured 20 inches. He’s everything we could ever wish for, and so much more.

He has seriously become the light of my life. I’ve never felt such a greater love than the one I have for him. It’s just crazy how such a little person can impact your life in such a way.  ( and crazy how he grew inside me! I still can’t fathom that, lol)

 On Sunday at around 4am I started having contractions that were around 30-60 minutes apart. They weren’t strong enough for me to go to the hospital so I went about my day- I even went bowling and had a trip to Chuck E. Cheese! Then around 10 or 11 my contractions started to get stronger and closer to one another.

At around 1 I couldn’t hold it anymore so I woke up my boyfriend and off we went to the hospital. When I was finally checked by the doctor, I was 2cm dilated and had contractions 5-6 minutes apart. I was told to walk for 2 hours around the floor we were on, so we did- I even threw some squats in there! When I went back to the “room” I was between 4-5cm dilated and contractions had gotten much closer so I was transferred into a delivery room.

 Once we were there and they set me up, I gave in and got the epidural. I really was aiming to not get it, but I couldn’t anymore. I made it for hours and up to being 6cm dilated, at least, and honestly, I’m very proud of myself either way. Even though it really didn’t hold on my left side and towards the end I started to feel my contractions again on that side. As for my right side, it was dead asleep haha.
Thankfully my parents made it from New Jersey before Gio’s arrival. They weren’t in the delivery but it was just so nice to have them there and know they were there. My water was broken for me and after that things moved along a little quicker. Once it was time to push I felt more than ready and got filled with such nerves, but also excitement. When the nurse told me some new moms can take hours I had a mini heart attack, but I only pushed for around 20-30 minutes, and those minutes flew by.

 And suddenly my baby was with me. I was taken over by so many emotions, it was all taken out with tears and giving him millions of kisses. They took him to get weighed and everything, and when they brought him back for the skin-to-skin and breastfeeding, he latched on quick and on his own! I was so happy because I was scared that I wouldn’t be able to breastfeed and thankfully it all worked out!
Jeremy went to meet his little brother the next day and it went great! He was shy at first since my parents were there but after that faded off, he carried and rocked Gio. He was so happy and that made everything 110x better.  They’re going to be great together.

  We got to come home on Wednesday and everything has been great. He had his first check up on Friday and didn’t even cry. He’s not really a crier, so far, so we’ve definitely been lucky!

I’m so happy to start this new adventure with my boyfriend and the boys. I’ve been anticipating it for so long and now that it’s here I just want to take advantage of every single moment. Being pregnant, giving birth, and now having Gio really has been such an eye opening, life changing, rewarding experience. I’d do it all again because it really is worth it all. My life feels so complete and I couldn’t be anymore in love or happier.